Saturday, February 06, 2010
hm..
i had met an encounter which i did not experience before in my life.. i am touched by wat he did for me.. he simply accepts everything of me.. and still willing to contribute his feelings to me no matter how much hatred ii had in him.. i have not met this kind of sha gua before.. i used to think this thing will only happen in drama and not real life but never i had expected, this actually happening to me and i dono wad to do cos he is my close fren whom i don wan lose de... but then seriously.. wad u did is just wan me to happy is this wad u wan? don u find it really tirin to do all this and nothing is being repayed back to you? i really admire your courage to love someone who simply didnt leave a space for u.. i wonder.. where u get those courage from to love someone unconditionally? if is me.. i sure not able to take it especially that person don even bother at all..
i really admire u..
honey..
i nt sure when u will see this post.. im sure u are aware of this incident.. i really envy him.. but then i wont choose him cos if i do, is just sympathy without love which is wad relationship cannot lack of... honey.. i noe u never blame him at all before.. i noe u sure will jealous.. but then baby.. i really admire his courage wor.. hmm... baby.. i decide to stay happy when i am with you.. so that this person's effort wont be gone into waste.. maybe i being stupid in saying all this.. but then he really very wei da... baby.. this person has already blessed us throughout our journey... this person will always stay inside my heart and i will never forget him.. cos of him i den noe how wei da love can be.. hehe.. =)) and cos of him.. i noe what is true love.. baby.. wad i wrote here is not wan make u jealous or wad.. is wan tell you.. 你是我的唯一 =))
ps:~ baby.. type ur name in the tag to tell me u had read le.. ~~
Saturday, January 02, 2010
Better than the past
to be truth, i really not happy.. but then seems that after wad i've told u my feelings, you seems treating me better le... hope my feelings not fake de.. hope is true... i dono why i love u so much even so many ppl asked me to leave you.. but then i simply cannot bring myself to do it.. i did asked myself am i really just rely on u or still loving you... after these days of real thinking, i find that i still love u as before... baby.. i noe are having hard time to pursue ur dreams.. but no matter what path u chosen, baobao will support ur decision de.. hm.. i noe wad u been yearning for.. i noe u can do it de after ord.. cannot give up once u had decided on wad u wan do.. hm.. baobao loving u always..
*FEAR*
- honey bian xin
- honey don care baobao
- honey eyeing on someone now
- honey ignore baobao
*BRAVE*
baby ah.. hm.. if one day u really don wan me le.. just tell me.. i wont hold u back anymore.. i noe u scared whenever u asked for break, i will wan u back.. and even make u xin ruan.. i will control my own emotions and force myself to let go of you totally.. but on condition, don ask for it on special occasions.. like valentine's, my birthday and urs... cos i cannot take it de... i not scared u asked for break.. cos i noe i not a good gf at all.. srsly some things i really cannot change.. im sorry to say.. i just cannot do it...
- keep wanting to meet u
- stubborn
- wilful
- sa jiao
- loving u
*WSMLIIN*
baby.. hope we can last as long as possible.. hehe.. maybe i am just being dumb to love you.. but then wad matter most is your feelings towards miie.. hope is still the same as much as the past.. =) baobao love you =))
*COMMENTS TO PUBLICS*
what i've wrote is my true feelings towards this 3 years plus relationships.. i don mind letting you to read it.. but whatever i wrote, i don think is funny at all.. (ii noe some of you would) if you been thru long term relationship, you will then understand how hard to maintain long term relationship with no FLAWS and no TEARS..
i'll end it here... i dono what to type further.. niitex~
Tuesday, December 22, 2009
USELESS
wtf i've been doing all this while... love is nt something abt fairness... if u really love a person.. u will never wan anything return at all.. hais.. i dono wad to say already.. wan i wan say i alre smsed and type out le.. now suddenly blog abt this.. kinda suddenly dono wad to say already sia... honey ah.. forgive baobao for her wilful and stubborness hao ma? baobao really need to learn alot along the way wor.. i noe u love me alot... i can sense ur love towards me.. i noe u very xing ku.. u told me before.. im the gal whom u loved the most in ur life... well.. u haben met dao a girl that really suits u u den say those sentence out.. i dono if later gt chance meet u or not.. bt then i really hope i can.. cos i really miss u alot.. i noe i always make u angry with me.. im sure u are the one who give in more than i gave in and never expect a return.. u just wan me to be the girl that u want.. gimme some time k? dui bu qi honey...
Sunday, November 29, 2009
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Tuesday, November 24, 2009
UsualPlace**
today.. when i on the way home, i seem being "forced" to go to the block that is directly opposite block 206 near atm there... dono why my walking pace go slower when i walked past there... i started to reflect wad happen to u and me at the grey seats there and of cos.. tat wall infront of it... well.. smth came into my mind... memories of the past came back upon wad happen there.... i wan sit there and think more de.. bt den gt this uncle being extra at there picking up cardboard -.- i den just walk off le... hmm.. i rmb the days when i actually from no time restrictions until have restrictions to be back home before 11 at that place.. i nw thinking back as i type this... i start to miss the memories at there... **hugs and kisses**.. i rmb.. the kitten which i forget the name of the kitten again... but of cos i wont forget "chiobu".. u still rmb wad happen to the light after 10.30 at the playground and u will say half an hour more....??? and wad happen at the wall also... reflecting back.. i dono why this time the feeling is so strong as compared to last time.. i miss the past alot.. **tears**
Sunday, November 22, 2009
傻瓜..
can say i being a fool... i dono hw explain why.. i think tts really e end of wsmliin le ba.. one thing i noe... if he is back.. i will cherish him even more.. i srsly cannot afford to lose him again if he is really back.. i noe i did alot of wrong things tat make him feel damn sian of me.. and i noe that i did try my very best to change wadeva i can do for him.. if he is back... i wont meet him often cos i might nt be free everytime le.. wont really contact him often.. wont really fann him often... wont keep wan this and that..will give him freedom.. i want him to be happy... i noe he wants me to care for him alot.. i will de.. most imptly.. i will be more understanding cos i wan the feeling of missing each other... tts love...he nw serving ns.. always very tired.. so.. e only i can do is minimize the time to meet especially when he working morning shift.. i noe he will be back fer me.. i noe that day will come.. i noe he still gt feelings fer me.. just tat he is sick and tired of me which i will try myself to give him time to go think abt it.. he really need time to have a real thinking..
if really gone:
honey.. thanks fer everything.. wadeva u did for me the past.. i'll rmb it.. wad happen at escalator.. i turn here and there with red face wor.. after tat..we start to quarrel cos of mike.. ur jealously... **smiles** we been thru alot.. we almost cannot together cos of xf.. u oso gt worried abt me when me and arina they all go confront xf.. ur worried for me make me feels that u care... ur jealously.. make me happy... esp weiwei thing.. still rmb that time abt mike ex matter.. u so scared me ask for break when u having ur exams before post out.. u cos of me din go ur early attachment... sorry for that... still gt wad leh?? hmm... yepp.. our neoprint.. hahas.. and oso my photo.. hee.. u put it infront of ur wallet to make sure u will see my face when open ur wallet.. hehe.. this one quite cute wor.. and ah.. u so damn cherish my every letter wrote to u during ur birthdays... i said this before... "today is ur birthday.. i wan make sure ur birthday is a special day for u.. hee.." and that time when u heard it, u cried wor.. --> like a kid.. hope ur next relationship.. ur future gf will make sure ur birthday is a special day and no longer a normal day like last time.. hope she is a good cook.. who will cook for my honey on random days.. hope she will be a better gal than me who wont controls u all tat.. and most impt.. hope she wont be a gal whom u will sian of her attitude.. one person sufferred this is bad enuff le.. i don wan this to happen to another person..
ivan's future gf:
whoever u are.. must bear his attitude when he just woke up..
must listen to his words..
don be stubborn
must noe hw to sa jiao..
don cry fer nth..
don ask him go shopping with u...
be independent..
pss~
i hope that future gf is still me.. hais..
Thursday, November 05, 2009
FuLL oF ReGrEts....
ii nw den learnt smth... i oso gain new experience of being backtabbed by my own friend who used to be my close frens in the past.. we used to do alot of things together... study...eat...go home... and lots... i nvr condemn him before.. cos to me, everyone has their own flaws and good points.. i just accept both his flaws and his good points.. until one day when he started learning dota... both me and les trying best to teach him... i noe sometimes, attitude and scoldings during the match cannot be avoided... but then it is part and parcel of learning dota esp u are the newbie..
i oso having hard time learning dota when alot of ppl are quite good at it.. me only have 1 year plus of experience in dota.. and i did get alot of scoldings from friends and my boyfriend... but then i just try my best to tolerate.. be it whether is ys tim or anyone who teaches me.. and weird thing was, tho i get scoldings in the game, i NVR quarrel with my frens or give them attitude in sko or even scold back.. srsly NVR... and ultimately, i din lose any of my frens at all those who dota--ed with me... but why this person will end up lose a number of friends when he oso played dota with us?i am wondering... isit worth to lose frens over a online game?--> just ask urself this question is enough for all... in the fact.. ur attitude is really bad... ppl tell me my attitude no good, i'll try my best to change... and i din say back to my fren saying that "seems that ur attitude is super good and thats why u find my attitude sux..."
i just accept and change... i noe myself well that ii did try change my attitude when someone told me to.. den in the end, i receive different treatment from my friends which is better.. this is a true story...this fren is someone from our class(0803) i don think there is a need to say out this person's name.. this person noe it HERSELF(hint)... there is not a need to lie to ur frens tat u nvr say certain things which u actually did.. this really will cause one person to be in great trouble...u shld noe wad i meant.. and for godsake, frens are not for testing... frens are ppl who u shld value for and respect and it is not an object --> get this clear...
P.S. (guessing ur thoughts after readin this blog) ~ huh? wad i do again sia zzzz... ultimately u still think u are right and im in the wrong.. all my fault again... hais... seriously, u really think highly of yourselves.. have u ever wonder why i become like this???
reponses after readin this -->
really marhs.. i nvr say wrong..
